Meg

I miss Meg so much. The worst part is how lonely I feel. Alex has been away at Uni and now shes back, the first thing she tells me is she wants to go off to Rwanda. I'm not sure I can stand to be in this house alone much longer. I have tried to keep busy ,with the wedding photography and now my exhibition. But I can't escape the feeling that Meg should be here with me. 

Its hard parenting Alex on my own. Meg used to be so good with her and always knew what to do. I feel like I have been thrown into the deep end of a pool, without being taught to swim. I am trying to be a good dad to Alex, but its so difficult without Meg. 

I visit her grave as often as I can. I want to go with Alex whilst she is here, but I'm not sure how Alex will feel about this. She rarely talks about her mum and doesn't like me trying to talk to her about how she feels and to be honest I find it just as hard. 

I miss you so much meg. I wish you where here.